May 14th 2019 I turned 28, I did lots of different things to celebrate with my friends and family including bowling, mini golf, a night out, meals out, got my hair done, had a day out to a bird sanctuary with a friend and her 1 year old and got lots of gifts and love-age from them all.
This years celebrations were fab but what this means is that I am now officially only 2 years away from the big 3-0…
Although, I always thought I’d be more worried about getting older but other than being in the mind set of having a ticking clock with regards to having children (and the annoyance that I’m nearly 30 and still in jobs rather than a career) I feel like age really is just a number.
I am making a 5-10 year plan with regards to a career change, a 5 year plan to become debt free (if I manage it sooner though that would be amazing!) and my boyfriend Rob and I have been planning future steps for our relationship- #adulting or what!?!
None of these things are actually effected by my age, sometimes I think they are or will be because when I was younger the aim was always to be married with children and living in a house I owned with pets by the time I was 25/30 (let’s all laugh together), that aim is gradually moving further and further away from reality but that is not necessarily a bad thing. The choices I have made in the past have brought me to where I am now and that is no bad thing either. I have amazing people around me- some literally around the corner, others are near in spirit and contactable by phone, email or write me the most adorable letters- I have an amazing boyfriend who I love very much and I genuinely feel blessed for having so much love and so many awesome people around me (vomit inducing I know, apologies…).
I go through stages of feeling like my life is flashing by far too quickly, I’m losing control and my goals are slipping away, OR that I don’t care about my age/where I am right now and I just focus on what I need to do/learn to get to where I want to be in my future. Those are my two states, there is very rarely an in between which does make it quite stressful but living with anxiety and stress on a daily basis has become the norm over the last decade or so, it becomes easier to deal with the longer it lasts but it does mean when extra stresses or big changes are added into the mix I do react quite quickly… :/
Turning 30 used to be such a big deal to me, a big milestone, the start of being ‘old’, but nowadays it seems to be the new 20’s. A lot of people extend their educational journey into their mid twenties or even later so the journey of a life of ‘adulting’ gets pushed back. Obviously I do have friends and family my age or younger who have done the whole house-marriage-baby journey but not having started that or even not wanting that before 30 (if at all) is becoming more and more common. This does make it feel more acceptable that I, as a now 28 year old, have not made any big steps on this journey yet either. No matter how much and how long I have been wanting something life just gets in the way of a lot of things. However, I do believe all things happen for a reason when they are meant to so I am just going to trust in my journey, keep moving forward and fingers crossed it all works out ^_^
Until next time, TTFN.
How do you feel about getting older? What I your next milestone? Do you feel you have achieved enough on your timeline so far? Let me know in the comments.
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